Esther Newton’s Monday motivation prompt is
Flaskback
It was just a party, a few friends. ‘Come,’ they said. It’ll get you out.’
I refused. Twice but then, well, I had to some time, didn’t I?
People are kind. No comfortable it’s true, not sure what to say. Looking for me to lead them but we left the elephant in the hall and talked about everything that was really important – love, politics, health, wealth – and none of it mattered.
Then someone gave me a drink. Water. Sparkling. Just water but with a slice of lime. Not lemon, lime. I don’t remember who was speaking but I heard ‘frozen’, like it was on repeat. At the exact moment I took the glass, I heard ‘frozen’.
Lips moved, like so many mannequins in a horror film. Time slows, doesn’t it? When shock hits. Overlaying that moment, drowning those words spilling out in irrelevant torrents were John’s words. John’s last words. His hand on my stomach like he could already feel it. Him. It would have been a him. ‘12 weeks. It’s the size of a lime now.’
Where’d he get that? The net, I suppose. Wiki. Some sick fuck calling a foetus a piece of fucking fruit. Yeah, right. Until it dropped broke everything.
Back in the moment, it was the weather that filled my head. That’s where we’d got to, in filling the time until we could leave. The weather. One minute John’s touching my still flat stomach, his hand warm, unlike the last time I held it, just like he was next to me in that trite, shambolic circle, each of us propping elbows with our unglassed hands. Next, he’s the elephant waiting for me in the hall. My past and my future and, in that slice of citrus, the briefest, cruellest present.
Some present.
So sad….
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O.u.c.h. Yes, sad. ❤ ❤ ❤ Sigh.
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Yes, I heard this play where the developing foetus was described by reference to the size of fruit and it really struck a chord
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Indeed, it would. ❤
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I love the image of him in the hall (the “elephant”) and the sparkling water with lime and comparison to that. Nicely done.
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Thanks Sarah. It the idea came from a radio play I heard. Very powerful.
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Well you’ve done it justice. Yours is powerful as well.
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Super writing. Every word.
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Thanks. I need to mail you about some editing sometime….
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That sounds intriguing. I look forward to it.
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I don’t know how you do it 🙂
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No neither do I!!
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Yes, very powerful, Geoff.
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Thanks Mick
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